well, this is day one of starting this website lol. thats really honestly besides the point though. its been, overall, probably the best last two days ive had in a really long time. i told myself yesterday to journal everything that had happened while it was fresh on my mind, but honestly time had evaded me. the memories are probably fuzzy now, but ill do my best to recall them all haha.

9/12/2025

to start, yesterday was the day I got rid of IMPSTRRR. it was heartbreaking, truly lol. if i had left him in the lot, though, they were going to have him towed in 3 days. probably to a pound, which i was surely gonna have to pay fees for lol. yea, it was with a heavy heart i chose to tow him on my own terms.

we got up fairly early, say around 9 or 10. it took a while to get it sorted since i had to call in and run up to the towing company to pay for the haul before they would even dispatch anybody. i pried the emblem off the cab with a butter knife. lol.

the towtruck guy was honestly really helpful. kept me pretty well informed with the process and stuff since i let him know it wasn't something id done before or was familiar with.

hi chat it is actually now 9/13/2025 but im back again to keep writing LOL. been so busy lately! anyway yea, we took the car to the towing spot, i popped the emblem off. i got some under 200 bucks for it, roughly 120 give or take after the towing fee which was about 55.

i ended up talking to one of the workers there, complimented his tattoos n stuff. He mentioned thinking about buying the mini since his own car had just been wrecked, and we exchanged numbers to stay in touch.

after we left he let me know they were able to start it, and the things wrong with it, and that he might buy it- and even though it is out of my hands

it made my heart happy to know the car might still get some second life! haha.

aand after that we went n hit flashbacks! peri picked up some jazz records, and spoke to a guy there about jazz artists through history and vinyls n stuff. he seemed like a professional, we talked at length to him about the records n stuff. I found a ring necked pheasant mount kinda tucked away on a high shelf and went n asked how much he was- and now i have a 30 dollar vintage pheasant taxudermy sitting as a centerpiece in the living room. LOL! i havent named him yet, but his feathers catch the light beautifully.

i think we went home after that, settled in and stuff. we went to bed pretty early since we had to get up the next day.

9/12/2025

we got up early to go have breakfast with the downstairs to the left neighbor, Alorea? Alorya? Im not sure how her name is spelled but its a beautiful name, means sunshine or something. It was a cozy little cafe, cove cafe. the interior was pink and kinda gaudy? but like, it was nice. i liked a lot of their furniture, it was eccentric, the other interior items n stuff were vintage and ornate. i told peri it was like if our aesthetics had a baby- it was like.pink and bright and full of plants but full of lots of old trinkety stuff too. I sat in a wooden chair with chartruese cushions n stuff.

anyway, we both got seasonal coffees- peri got a pumpkin spice and i got a uhh wild black cherry puree type of deal with chocolate, slushified. we both got scones too, mine was blueberry.

and al showed up, and it was good. at some point al's physical therapist? showed up, and she sat with us for a little while- and shortly after she had left, the guy from the record store the day prior came in the door.

He was happy to see us- and he talked to peri a bit again about the records she bought yesterday. he introduced himself as james, and we invited him to sit.

he stayed after al left, we talked to him a long time about a lot of things- from music history to ai and politics. he works i guess as a judge/lawyer in crime, and collects records of all genres. he had a big collection list written up, and shared some music with us in the cafe. he told peri everything would be okay before he left, and peri cried. it was sweet, and im thankful people like him exist in the world. peri needs more exposure to it lol. after that we went and ordered my social security card in preperation for the thanksgiving trip peri is planning to take us on. I cant remember where? maine, maybe. its with her omi.

we were going to go more places, and to the fair, but peri was exhausted after that lol. i was a bit dissapointed, the evening kinda falls of from there. i had a phone call with my cousin i drastically misinterpreted- and had a bit of a . depressed lapse in judgement lol. i drank some, but cleared up pretty quick after when i told my cousin more what was going through my mind. communication is always key, i really need to start giving more faith to people.

but yea, we spent the night in. got cross faded. drew some stuff. went to bed. it was good!

goodmorning!yes i honestly slept in like so much today. i didnt roll out of bed until like, 3:30pm. i dont regret it, though, its been ages since i just let myself rest! so often i feel like i need to be going going going as soon as my consciousness starts coming back around. it was nice to just choose to lay around and be comfy for a while longer, and not worry too much about wasting time or not being productive. im productive like most the time anyway, so. as of writing, its about 6:10. we're planning on ACTUALLY hitting the fair today, so i need to start getting ready soon. im hoping itll be a good time, im mostly excited to see all of the art booths. its unironically my favorite part. plus fair food! cant get funnel cake like that anywhere else. ill be coming back to write more later. but its been a good quiet morning spent with peri.

so honestly! the fair went terribly LOL. i was most excited for the art competition and the craft booths, but the booths were not there (maybe packed up before we arrived?) and the art was yk. lackluster on that front as well. peri wasn't in a good mood when we got there, so I didn't feel like I could really enjoy the artwork. I had gotten a little prissy cause parking was horrific and it took peri a long while to pick back up.

anyway. we roll up. we drop 70 bucks on bands to get in, and its. small. like, smaller than I ever remember. maybe 10 rides total, and all of them are, comparitively small to the ones ive ridden in the past back in jonesboro. so it was a let down to say the least! the crowd was horrible too, all the lines were long- nothing really was worth while, worth the wait, worth the money, but we couldnt get refunds so we stayed anyway. we ended up only riding two rides, the ferris wheel, and the uhh. its like a tinier flatline.

yea it wasn't much. we dropped another 20-30 on food. uh but i had some more good conversations with people, im trying to look on the positive side. I thanked a lady for picking litter up and she seemed really nice. and there was a kid sitting alone with a playstation shirt, i complimented the shirt and asked if it was his preffered console. it seemed to cheer him up, at least for the moment.

and before we left i bought a labubu. or i thought it was a labubu anyway lol. he turned out to be a fake, but i still have maternal instinct over him. i named him peach fuzz.

but yea i cried when I got home. I had spent pretty much all the cash I got from my car and I kept reflecting on how all of it had been a dissapointment and a waste of money. I was upset because I felt not only those things, but that I had somehow lost my car in the process. I kept envisioning the car being made of 100 bucks, and all of it slowly coming apart and flying off in the wind. I just felt defeated ! and when I posted peach fuzz on reddit and got the word he was fake, it was the only good thing of the evening to look back on, and i felt then it was also a dissapointment.

I tried to tell myself it was no big deal, you know? im not that into them, im not a collector, i do not care about the value. but i still felt lied to- and like i had paid for something that wasn't what it was, yk? that sucked. but the subreddit was really nice. they flooded the comments with positivity, teling me peach fuzz was adorable and congratulating me on being a new mother lol. i also had someone reach out to send me an extra happiness bubu. i thought that was sweet too.

after all that we got stoned, had pasta, watched uhh 'nacho libre', and rolled around and went to bed. I slept good.

monday, sunday, work monday. we took a shower n went to walgreens to get creamer and milk. we also got a frozen pizza for me to fix before work anddd two little 50 cent lindor chocolates. i said, 'to sweeten up the morning'. its the little things, i reckon. anyway, yea. had coffee, had pizza, im sitting on the couch right now. its probably just about 1. yea, 1:06. i have an hour before work, so here i am working on my neocities again. and ive got the ten hour shift after that. im not really sure what id like to do with my day? with my week. i have very little time to do personal work around my actual work days. ive been wanting to get started back on my worldbuilding again, though. building a more proper setting, a more proper cast of characters. i want it to be pretty fluid, though. i think i just need to figure out what sorts of characters i want to start with.

the work day was fine, though very busy. I did a few discharges before and around my route, and a lot of the places (cath lab, GI) had a bigger work load than typical for the weekend. I was just busier than usual. The lintel uhh upset my tummy big time, so by the end of my shift i had like. mega sore ache from working ??? cramping, and then the evilest tummy event ever of all time. it was not comfortable. I was admittedly grouchy like, the rest of the night and peri and i both got upset like all the way into the ams, which sucked. but whatever !!!!!

ok so like. im writing this on the 16th lol but yesterday was ROUGH. I honestly got up fairly early I think? I got ready, I got up and around and worked on the banner for the main page (the lamps?) cause. I had worked on it the night prior and gotten really fucking upset about it. I think I failed to mention that in yesterdays diary but . yea i kinda split over it and got into a lowgrade 'arguement' with peri and then PERI split and it was just a mess last night. so anyway I woke up on a big of a wrong foot because of it I think, I didn't get a full nights rest.

but I got up, showered, had coffee and cereal, then sat down to work on the banner. and then couldn't, for the life of me, get the image to work on the directory. like. I found out eventually it was just slow updating :/ which would have been helpful to know because it pissed me the hell off and i ended up taking an fmla day because i wasn't sure how stable I would be at work lol. unfortunate.

nothing i can do about it now though. I ended up figuring it out and spending roughly three hours testing code and troubleshooting since I haven't really played with classes and divs before. It's a lot like assigning variables in python, though. like uh, prewriting a function that can be called loosely later on. Seems to kind of be the same premise?

anyway. yea I did that for a while and then I sat down to start compiling sources for the cast of characters, since the hub world manifested Ive just needed to start integrating souls. but I ended up getting really exhuasted and laying myself down around like. I dont know, 6 or 7? but peri got me up around 8 to actually go nap. I was reluctant because i normally dont sleep that early and still kinda wanted to do things with my day, but I didn't feel very good so I went to bed anyway lol. we got up for a little around 1 to take the dog out and get meds in peri and stuff. then I went RIGHT back to slumber.

yea so thats all. it was rough lmao.